Hiiii everyone that made an active decision to read about my life crisis. Shame on you for being so nosy! Haha JUST KIDDING!! I’m the BIGGEST Nosy Rosy I know! I wanted you to be here. Otherwise, I wouldn’t have wanted to share this story with you in the first place! Thank you for taking the time out of your busy life to listen to me talk about mine.
Okay…I’m going to be completely honest with you, I have absolutely NO FREAKING IDEA what my future looks like! Zero clues! I would have gotten kicked off the Blue’s Clues show for sure y’all! At times, my life feels a little cray cray! Hence the title, “Quarter Life Crisis.” Do you ever feel that way?
For the last few years, I’ve been pursuing acting in New York City and Los Angeles. It has been so much fun, and I was fortunate enough to book my first co-star last year. I definitely want to continue chasing after my dream of being a series regular on a television show, but I’ve decided I REALLY want to chase after something else in conjunction with acting.
It has been hard to verbalize, but here it goes; I want to make creating and sharing content that inspires people and promotes a happy and healthy lifestyle into my JOB through blogging (aka writing, Instagram, YouTube, Facebook, etc.).
I love fitness (marathons, triathlons, workout classes), shopping (dresses, swimsuits, gifts for other people), and traveling. Hopefully, my blog will be your go-to spot for information about all of the things I mentioned. I know it will take some time to establish trust. I feel like I’ve said I’m going to blog a million times before, but I am ready to commit to this as a business venture and not just a hobby.
I want to share my marathon, triathlon, and volunteering journeys. I want to share my travels and experiences with you. I want to inspire a positive place full of love and encouragement with the occasional cuss word. I want to be your virtual friend turned real life friend! I want us to run races together and cheer each other on from wherever we are in the world! I have a TON of wants!! Greedy little sucker I am!
If you’re wondering if I live in a fairytale in my head, you’d be correct! I like to see the world in rainbows, and I believe together we can do stuff like this! We truly are better together than we are by ourselves. It’s taken me awhile to admit that though. I don’t like to be a burden to people or ask for help, but asking for support is something I’m working on.
I know it isn’t a traditional career path, but luckily for me, I’m not much of a traditionalist. It is something that I believe will give me purpose. I’m not sure how in the world I’m going to make money doing it, but that’s okay. One day and one step at a time. My first step has been to decide. Decide what you’re passionate about. Be passionate about it. Actually, DO whatever you’re passionate about. The money will eventually follow.
Purpose and passion are two things I’ve lost or misplaced over time. Has that ever happened to you? I will start new things, then three months later I’m over it. I know runners that have this burning desire to get up every day of their lives and run. That is NOT me! Haha, I wish it was though! I legit have to sign up for races and pay the money in order to hold myself accountable. Even then, I struggle to put those running shoes on! It feels like everyone around me has their sh*t together, and I’m over here just trying to figure out what to eat for dinner! Know that feeling?
Acting can be a lonely and self-satisfying endeavor sometimes. You are not directly helping people other than yourself every day. Two of my three sisters are nurses, and they literally get to keep people from DYING. I’m not sure me making YouTube videos will ever do that, but maybe they will give someone a laugh or teach them a random tip. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE to act! Working with wonderfully creative people and auditioning for roles bring me so much joy. However, I think I can also find joy in sharing bits and pieces of my life with you. If you will have me?
The thing is, what I have wanted to pursue has seemed too silly or too hard to me. I’ve been embarrassed to admit I want to write and create content. I don’t know why I’ve felt like this either? I mean blogging is basically marketing. I know I’ve been failing to do it for the past few years because I let myself listen to that little-wretched voice inside my head that was telling me I couldn’t do it. It’s called ego. It’s called being afraid to fail. It’s called negativity. It’s called being my own worst enemy. Being a perfectionist isn’t always a pleasant journey. I have made excuse after excuse about why I haven’t followed through with my goal to make this into a paying job.
How many of you have been your biggest roadblock, preventing you from finding your spiritual, emotional, or financial happiness? It’s not too late to get out of your own way though! That’s what I’ve been telling myself anyway! Haha
Listen, I completely understand if you want to quit following me, and think I am the most annoying person you’ve ever met. I get it! I get on my own nerves at times! I don’t want to be that crazy self-promoting jerk always trying to get you to pay attention to me. I want to be the person that gets you to pay attention to yourself! I want to see you posting more bikini and workout pictures than I do! You guys know I have a bathing suit buying problem. Right?? Just checking.
Full disclosure, I’m a jack-of-all-trades and master at absolutely NOTHING! Have you read Outliers by Malcolm Gladwell? From what I remember, he theorizes, that you are a master of something after 10,000 hours or 10 years of experience. (I read that book 5 years ago, so if I’m wrong, please send me an email). I’m lucky if something can keep my interest for longer than one hour! Being mommy to Sadie and Benny has been my longest job, and I forgot them on the porch the other day, and they got out!!! I’m lucky nothing happened to them! #epicmomFAIL Thank goodness, they were saved, and that they seem to love me still.
I’ve always been so jealous of people that have always known what their passion is and have followed through with it even from a young age. I’ve NEVER been that person. I played basketball, volleyball, softball, cross country, track, and cheerleading because I couldn’t decide which one I liked the best. I have a biology degree and am now an actor. Talk about varying subjects! I have bounced around from Arkansas to Las Vegas to New Jersey to New York City to Los Angeles. I have no idea which state or country I’ll end up in! My point is, I’ve never known what I want to do or where I’ll be. Maybe I won’t ever have an absolute answer, but I can promise you I will always be searching and learning and trying to figure it out!
I realized the other day, for those of us “Jacks,” our GIFT is being able to learn a little something about everything. We are experts at trying new things and obtaining as much information as we can in short spurts of time. Additionally, we are the BEST teammates for trivia games! We are testing new ideas and wanting to experience the unknown. I would like to share the ups and downs of my exploration, travels, and fitness adventures with you to hopefully give some insight into things you may want to experience for yourself. I want to be your Guinea pig! Have you seen hairless Guinea Pigs??
I’ll be your red headed GP! hahaha Sorry, I crack myself up!
What I have discovered about blogging is, it is not the easy task I thought it would be. It’s much more than writing an article, adding pictures, and posting. If you want to be your own little news outlet for people, you need to continuously provide content. Creating content, by the way, is a FULL-TIME job! It can take hours upon hours to get one picture! I don’t know how some of these girls and guys are constantly emailing, commenting, posting, sharing, etc.! They make it look so easy! Like, when do they sleep? Also, when I am referring to creating content, I mean taking pictures for Instagram, writing scripts, filming YouTube videos, editing said YouTube videos, learning how to use the editing software, making picture art for Pinterest, writing, and the list goes on and on and on. I’ve been editing this post for 3 weeks because I’ve been finding reasons not to post it.
I keep letting myself get overwhelmed with the “NO’s” in my head. The “I’ll do it tomorrow’s.” The, “I’ll never be able to figure that out.” The “No one will read it, so I won’t post it” thoughts. I got embarrassed that my content wasn’t good enough. So, I haven’t shared it. Geezzz…for someone that prides themselves in being a “YES” person, I sure have told myself NO A LOT!
When was the last time you told yourself no to something you were too afraid to say yes to? Are you ready to say yes to it now? What are the things that are holding you back?
Here’s the thing, I’ve jumped out of a plane twice! Twice! I didn’t have any fear when it came to skydiving, scuba diving with a coral snake (one of the deadliest snakes in the world), or moving across the country to pursue a risky career. However, I have been paralyzed by the fear of failure to share my own content. I’ve been terrified to allow myself to try something that I am solely responsible for. Small business owners are so brave! I want to be brave. I owe it to myself to be consistent and follow through with something I’m passionate about. Consistency has been the MOST difficult obstacle in my life. I’m ready to turn it into one of my best qualities.
Is there a skill or quality that you want to work on? Maybe it is making an effort to be early, to eat less sugar, to spend more time with your loved ones? Whatever it is, are you ready to commit to making the change? JUST START! Don’t put it off any longer. Let us hold each other accountable.
I’m DONE letting fear dictate my life! I can’t do it alone though. I need your help. I need your accountability and your feedback. I need you to share your knowledge and your gifts. I need your friendship. I need your honesty. I need your love.
Hopefully, our life paths will collide, and when they do, let’s hug it out and have a good laugh! If our paths have already crossed, don’t be shy, let’s reconnect! My email is email@example.com. Feel free to email me if you want! I’m here!
Forewarning to all of my family and friends, I will be posting a lot more. I hope it will be informative, and I hope that you will learn at least one thing from the content or at the very least be entertained! I will be doing some fun giveaways, will have places on my website you can shop my outfits and gift ideas, and I will have some live videos through Instagram and YouTube for you in the very near future.
Events I have coming up: IRONMAN SANTA ROSA…I am praying I have the strength to finish this one in under 17 hours! I will be posting lists of gear I use, things I pack for races, and reviews of products I’ve tried. Click HERE for a breakdown of the first triathlon I did!
If you felt inspired to join me on my journey, subscribe to my blog. Follow me on Instagram. Subscribe to my YouTube channel. Send me a message or comment below. If you weren’t that impressed, come back soon! I promise I’ll keep trying! That’s all we can do in this life!
Sending you all love and light from Los Angeles!